Last Day to bid Good Bye

My dear 2009,

I know its time to leave you and bid adieu. No regrets I have, but full of hope.......I know in hours 2010 will come..

You gave me so many good moments to cherish, to keep safely in my casket of memories, so as painful ones..

Good Bye dear 2009! Good Bye

Am I lazy?

Every day when I get up I will think atleast today I will not waste my time. Will finish all the work I intend to do. Will learn, write and improve my writing skills. Prepare well for my CS exams. But no not even a single day I kept my word. Why so? Am I so lazy to follow what I preach?

I often advice other person. DO I follow the same? To my knowledge most of the things I preach I follow. But what about the ones left out? I must follow that too if it is right. Must find a way to manage my time little more accurately.

Yes am lazy to an extend. Let me put this way am lazy 20 percent to be specific :-). Laziness to an extend is good but it should not cross limit and became a way of living itself.

Good Bye 2009

One more year is passing off. Few more days left 2009 is getting ready to say good bye to us. What is my achievement in 2009? This question strike me today morning.

Did I achieve anything? Yes I did! Both material and non materialistic achievements. I landed in new job this year, though it is not very satisfying I did learn and is learning new things from there. That too the job is in a prestigious institution in Bangalore. Yet another matter to be proud.

I got a lot of new friends this year. I was able to revive my past friendship, which I missed in my journey for survival. Personally I became more brave and courageous. Whom should I thank. Of course first I should thank almighty for his blessings. Secondly to all those people who came to my life knowingly or unknowingly to show me the right path, who guided me, who made me realise my mistakes, who became my strength and weakness and many more.

When I look back, yes it was a wonderful year with precious moments to cherish! Thank you 2009. You were wonderful to me with lots of joy and little pricky sorrows....

Why do we get sulking bosses?

I was so relieved when I left my previous job. I thought okay at last I got freedom from my sulking boss. No that was an illusion. In the new job too the same. This time only gender changed. I got a female boss.

Its horrible

Why do we get sulking bosses?

I thought when I left the previous company, should search for a more independent job. And I was so happy to find one, which is more relaxed though a little deviation from my career path. AAAh now i have peace of mind. But that was an illusion. :-( Here too I got a sulking lady boss. She is so bad that there is no place for your capability or potentials. She will find only negative in you.

Hmm such a perfectionist and a mad person, will just shout at you when she feels. I am fed up! Feel to through the resignation and leave. But I cannot. I am trapped because of family, commitments .Sad

Cribbing

I often wonder, how do people take my cribbing. I am not much bothered about big issues in life. But my typical Virgo nature steps out of me when silly things go wrong. For last two weeks am cribbing and is fussy about travelling to native.

Since my dear Karnataka government has put a ban on night travel, in Nagarhole, Bandipur forest area, travel is a nightmare for we poor Malabaries :-(. Will this be sorted out or not I haven't travelled to my native for past two months. Right now am too miserable and is desperate to see my loved ones.

Hmm what to do, no idea. Am exploring all way to go home taking minimal overs. Flight travel is the easiest, but am too scared of Planes and the COST!!!!!!!!!!!! not to mention.

Train is another option, but need to go to Yeswantpur, a place I have heard but never seen in my 3 years stay in bangalore. So in the end if I decided to go by bus, I must enjoy night at forest for almost 3 extra hours. Am I ready for that? Not so sure? 8 hours journey itself I consider painful, then three more hours extra means what to say?

God knows. I think should cancel the plan to go home. But I miss my Amma, Achen and dear L'il Sis......

Friendship - A use and throw deal?

What is friendship? I never tried to define friendship because it always existed for me, no matter what may happen. But for the first time I feel its time to define it and stay in the limit of that definition. Are you thinking what made me do so? Yes there is an answer to that.

For nishima, every friend is a part of her, close pals part of her soul. She do have a soul mate. Or was she in an illusion that the person was a soul mate. It seems so now. For more that two years they remained good friends. Now the friend is moving out of the city. The sad part of the story is Nishima's soul mate (illusion) want to end the friendship and move on. Doesn't want to carry on the friendship.

How is Nishima feeling? Strange, shocked, out of tears, in vaccum. Is Nishima a use and throw property? For people come, when and they want and leave as and they like? Why this happen again and again? Is something wrong with Nishima? I believe so. High time to sit and think back.......

Nishima feels her brain is dead, heart not functioning..............Whatz friendship? A use and throw deal? No value is there?..................................Bad very bad

thoughts

My mind is wondering today. For almost a month i was at home. Its so nice to be at home, secure and safe. Now once again i am moving out to a world of insecurity. I am going back to the IT hub of India, in search of a livelihood. Will the city fullfill my needs. Hope so. Bangalore is the city which changed my life. The innocent girl from Calicut learned the false faces of friendship and relations there. For people there mostly life is just to enjoy and utilize maximum. No one has time for others.......

Its also a city of dream for many like me. I must say, i did find some good and meaningful relations, which holds me up whenever I am down with sorrow. They are my best buddies....
Here am once again back to Bangalore.... my second home

My first day

Hello all,

Today i joined the bloggers community. Its a happy event. I have been thinking to start blogging since last one year. But never got the guts to do so, since I was not so confident about myself. Even now am not sure how am i going to make others to reach to my blog or what am i going to share in this open diary. But one thing for sure am going to use this manasaputri to share my thoughts, dream, vision to all like minded people. Hope there will be some to encourage me with their thoughts too... So lets start