Love or Crush

Is it crush that I feel for him or is it true love? Now tell me what is a true love? What not I have done to be noticed by him..But all in vein. Why I get so panicky when he is near me to discuss something.. Hearing his voice make many butterflies flutter in my stomach. I check hundred times in mirror if my face is okay, is my hair fine am I looking pretty (atleast I think so :-) )and will get up every second to straighten my dress.. Did he ever notice me, not so I remember.

I got his mobile number. Called him thrice, he spoke so well. Used to sms him daily but he never responded. He was busy always. One day he told me he won't sms me, but will respond to my calls. That too he didn't keep. Then I mailed his responded for few then left.... Does he already have some one in life? May be. But why can he atleast talk to me and make me realise that 'see am not interested in you, so better clear out of my way'.

Oh God! what am I expecting....I don't know. Why do I long for someone who don't even know me and who is here for few more months. But still I long for his attention, which is vein. Wait a minute some one is calling me or is it a door bell. Oh come on pull yourself out of blanket come on. Not a call, not door bell... its an alarm waking me up to reality.........